Ragnarok Online- Port Malaya

I was waiting for about 10 hours or more, and at last, Philippine Ragnarok Online has launched the first local-based map of their game- PORT MALAYA! It's map that's generally based from Philippines. Mythical creatures that were known & originated from here were created as monsters and they were fascinating. Hope that hours of waiting is worth it. Probably waiting for the patch and hope to play it soon. You guys better check this new map out. Coz from what I see, this will be a sure hit again. #MoreFunInThePhilippines

CELEBRITY PICTURES | FAT'S BLOG: Joe Cheng Wallpaper

CELEBRITY PICTURES | FAT'S BLOG: Joe Cheng Wallpaper

Hanna Kimi :3

so CUTE !

FAITH ABOVE FAME. :)

We were wandering around SM Calamba, looking for the National Bookstore.
I was really fond of reading books to ease and relax my mind, broaden my reading and comprehension skills and of course, to enjoy. Suddenly, we passed by a BookSale(a store that bargains old stocks but real good books). And of course, being a book enthusiast, i hurriedly asked my peeps to wait for me coz i wanna buy a book.

I was scanning book by book when i bumped into a book entitled "The Christmas Box".
I hold it right in my hand and remembered that it was almost Christmas, and it's a good thing to read a story that will set my mood in this incoming holiday. But of course, i wanted to get best books so i searched again trying, to find better book from the one i'm holding. I looked shelves by shelves and saw the book "Blooded".
It's a novel subjecting vampires. At this time, we all know that vampire stories were a hit. But then, after troubling myself, i decided to buy the first one.
In my mind, it goes, "What's the sense of knowing vampires? Getting inspired and knowing real Christmas stories is worth bragging about."

The Christmas Box

“Whatever the reason, I find that with each passing Christmas the story of The Christmas Box is told less and needed more. So I record it now for all future generations to accept or dismiss as seems them good. As for me, I believe. And it is, after all, my story.”

Summary

So begins The Christmas Box, the touching story of a widow and the young family who moves in with her. Rick, Keri, and their 4-year-old daughter, Jenna, are hired as caretakers and are welcomed into the Victorian home of Mary Parkins, an elderly widow, just before the holiday season. As the relationship between Mary and the family develops we learn that Mary’s past sorrows are compelling her to share an important message with Richard. But will he understand her message in time? A heartwarming story of parental love, healing, and Christmas.

SM (Super Masikip/ Over Crowded)

this is really a tiring day ..
waking up as early as 6 in the morn' is really a challenge ..
went to the school for 2 final examinations ..
political science examination went well,
but trigonometry really fvcks me off ..
to replenish the stress from school pressure and exams aftershocks,
we decided to go to SM Calamba opening day (Oct. 15,2010).
i'm with hanna lebosada and hanna sanchez.
well, that's what i've thought.
but crap ! the place was overflowing with people.
you cannot even move easily.
geez. i should have stayed at home.
I'M SO TIRED. :|

IF YOU ONLY KNEW...

if you only knew..
..how much i want to tell you i like you.
if only you knew..
..how much i wanna show that i care for you.
if you only knew..
..how much i wanna talk to you.
if you only knew..
..how much i wanna hold you.
if you only knew..
..how much i wanna laugh with you.
with this feeling,
everything seems so good.
yet i know it isn't right.
yet i know it's impossible.
all i can do is visit your page,
stare at your picture,
daydream about you and me.
but i can't even like your posts.
i can't even comment on it.
it's too depressing.
however, seeing your status being happy,
gives me a sense of relief.
i never understand why am i like this.
before,
i've got a crush on too many good lookin' guys,
but you're different.
it's only you
who can make my heart beat so loud
whenever you're around.
and it's only you
who can make my heart stop beating whenever you throw your smile.
it's so refreshing.
it's so alluring.
i'm so captivated.
i'm so into it.
CRUSH CRUSH CRUSH.
is this really just another crush?

krassssssss

as i was scanning on my FB updates.
an idea strikes again.
(stalking my crush's profile.)
he rarely puts his pictures but
i really love lookin' at it over and over again.
i can really remember.
yesterday (oct.1 friday almost 11am)
my heart could really fell off from it's place.
right when i was really dying to answer my trigo quiz,
he suddenly came out from nowhere,
directly looking at me.
i almost blast from blushing.
he's really cute.
his presence distracts me so much.
but thanks to him,
that quiz turn out to be a SPECIAL one.
thanks crush :">

FLIPTOP makes me smile c:

another messed up day ..
i was supposed to do my chores but still got no energy ..
the prob about my peeps makes me weaker and weaker each day ..
but i'm still hoping that it will back to normal soon ..
being too depressed ,
i don't have any reason to smile or laugh ..
shit happens and it passed as if it doesn't appear at all ..
this typical day really is as boring as hell ..
sitting at the couch holding my lappy ..
posting on my favorite Facebook page and waiting for the people's likes and comments ..
this is my ordinary day ..
but i promised myself that would work harder to show 'em that i still go competence ..
but where the heck on this fvckin' earth will i get my inspiration to do that ..
i was completely lost and i'm at the point of giving up ..
everything messed up and everything fvcked up like "what the eff? what have i done?"
i'm completely useless and as stubborn as rock ..
and just by now,
i saw a friend of mine accepted the sibling request from my other peep ..
i was like, "hey! did she send me one also? bet not."
it was really devastating but what's the point of frowning?
i will mess more if i continue to act like this..

too much ideas, and too much problems..
at least fliptop lines give me some break. c:

FORMSPRING:D

LOL. my formspring is really at mess c:

OWWW YESSS.

i was suppose to attend the EElympics at Lyceum
but suddenly laziness strikes again.
i was totally preoccupied with my school mess,
and i don't have any strength to stand up from bed.
the feeling of loneliness still lingers on my veins.
i didn't attend the event and do my lazy regular day.
nothing so special.
net surfing, facebooking, page hopping, etc.
but this night is kinda special than ordinary c:
i found out that my big crushhhhhhhh :"> is online !
even if he don't talk to me.
i still felt some happiness over me. c:
owwww yessss.
at least there's a person who can cheer me up.
just seeing your name on my chatbox,
and for the fact that you're still awake just like me,
ohhhh that feel so special.
i feel so happy.
thanks CRUSH! :">

I EAT BECAUSE..

yesterday, i woke up feeling so depressed.
i'm feeling self pity more and more.
i was crying.
wishing and praying that everything went good as i want it to be.
thoughts are running through my mind.
it's really a heavy feeling.
i tried to smile and go on.
but today.
it grew worse.
i never expect this feeling.
torn and worn out.
inside and out.
emotional and physical.
what hurts the most is, NO ONE REALLY CARES!
everybody were fucked up in their own groups.
everyone laughs as if i'm not there.
if they only knew how envy i was.
and so..
i went home.
i went home all alone..
i managed to hold my tears while i'm riding my way home.
and so.
i eat. i eat until i'm full.
i eat until i feel bloated.
i eat until there's no space left inside my tummy.
i eat because i'm lonely.
i eat because i'm alone.
i eat because i have no one to lean on.
i eat coz i'm TORN.
yeah i'm TORN. :(

BEING ALONE.

you know what's damn?
when the friends you got turn their backs.
as if they never knew you.
as if they were never your friends.
as if you're not here.
you're putting efforts but still it's unseen.
you don't know the reason behind it.
you don't even have the chance to ask what's going on.
it suck.
this feeling really is frustrating.
heartbroken hurts.
but this one kills.
feeling of deserted.
feeling of alone.
no one to cheer you up.
no one cares for you.
and this is really a damn.
it's a big DAMN! :(

CONFUSED.

i don't really understand, why am i feeling this way.
everything seems fucked up.
everything seems messed up.
i don't know what's the problem w/ myself.
i'm too stubborn.
i don't know why ~ i really really don't know.
it's just that, i'm feeling that i have no energy to move.
i'm telling myself that i should grow up.
that i should learn to be more responsible,
and more sensible in everything that i do.
careless and worthless. that's the sense i'm feeling right now.
question i don't know how to answer.
i'm in doubt that my parents nor my friend can help me out.
i'm by myself.
i'm gone.
i'm lost.
i'm confused.
MAY GOD BE THE LIGHT.

-zj

love or hate

its just so weird ..
way back from ffs addiction times,i was actually playing .. yeah .. as in literally playing >:]
i get to know many people,extend my social network and find some enemies too ..
well,this is one guy who always tackle me, (uh.,not literally >_< )..
he always see the wrong in me .. and even became so annoying when he suddenly brings out his "i am cool" side .. yeah he's cool .. as in !
i certainly hate him .. he's been callin' me some endearments and it really pissed me off ..
i really really hate him .. i swear !
but like what they say .. "IF YOU HATE SOMEONE THAT MUCH .. AND YOU CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE,THE NEXT STEP COULD BE JUST TO LOVE HIM.."
funny at first ..
it was like ..
woah ! why should i love him ?
i totally hate him !

but one day,
a message in the inbox bothers me ..
well you know ..
thats how it all started :p

boy or man?

boy ^^

interrogate me :]]

am i boring?

hell NO !

interrogate me :]]

favorite sports?

badminton ^^

interrogate me :]]

fantasy or reality?

reality

interrogate me :]]

cry or laugh?

cry ;(

interrogate me :]]

want to hear my voice?

haha ^^ oo nmn yes !

interrogate me :]]